Melo-drama week

I just got so dramatic yesterday. Thanks to the feelingunfairundeservedstupidhaydnessay marks I got.

This is what happened:

I happened to read 2 other music students essay in one of the music conservatory basement computer, one is an aussie and one is an asian.

Aussie student wrote the same music essay question as me. His essay is only 4 1/10 page long, no bibiliography and no cover page, no musical examples, just plain narration of Haydn symphonies from books, got 72 %

I wrote 10 page long worth of essay, with no bibliography page, but with flitered analysis and music examples, much more organised than his, more research done than the aussie student, got 65%.

And i feel sorry for this asian student, wrote 15 pages worth of essay, (different question but marked by the same marker), got bibliography page, got lots of research done, got alot of music examples, got 62%.

Conclusion:
1) The marker is just plain racist!
2) The marker is too lazy to read long essays, and therefore, the longer essay you wrote, the lower marks you get, and mind you, none of my points are contradicting, I am sure i got better points than that aussie student.
3) Aussies are plain lazy and Asian students are generally more hardworking than aussie students.

Seriously, i dont think my essay is not that bad as the aussie's essay. If the aussie didnt even produce a cover page, musical examples and lack bibliography page, my essay with music examples, more research done, few or no expression problems, i dont see why my essay is marked lower than that aussie's essay. If that slack aussie essay can get 72%, i think my essay is worth either the same or even better. Maybe that aussie marker is stupid enough to understand an asian essay.

Ok, i better stop this ramblings, before anyone wants to beat me up for being too direct/ criticising aussies or mistook me for a TYPE A personality.

----------------- Putting all anger and frustrations aside ---------------------------------------

Yesterday's ramblings lead me to a series of deep thoughts about why this has happened.

A common overused quote from the bible or in fact, from last Sunday 2nd reading: St Paul's letter to the Philippians " I can do all things in him who strengthens me".

Maybe I havent been praying for the past few weeks. My spiritual reservoir is now empty, or rather supported by going to church, singing for choir every sunday. Maybe because I don't have the spiritual support I used to have. Maybe I am just too tired to be on this myself...