Reflections

After praying and doing some bible reflection, I got 'hit' by this verse from the bible:

Galatians 3:2-5

"Tell me this one thing: did you receive God's Spirit by doing what the Law requires or by hearing the gospel and believing it? How can you be so foolish! You began by God's spirit; do you want to finish by your own power? Did all your experience mean nothing at all? Surely it meant something! Does God give you the Spirit and work miracles among you because you do what the Law requires or because you hear the gospel and believe it?"

I believe in this verse, St Paul is trying to 'tell me off' (to put it in humanistic sense).

I remembered after attending Youth in Spirit Seminar by amplify in December 2005 (that's like so long ago), I feel so spiritually recharged, being so active as an organist in my music minstry in church. I remembered I could play consecutively for 3 masses, 6.45am, 9.30 am and 11am and even 2 consecutive penitential service (even when I am sick), play for all the weekday masses. But after a moment, playing for mass is just like an obligation, the thing that keeps me going is my interest in music, and probably the fellowship of the choir members, and things began working by my own strength, and sometimes if i play for more than 2 masses, it's out of friendship. And of course, things really get bad for me before I left, got upset with some people in the ministry till I needed a break. But then, we are still humans after all.

How I wish I could return to that moment of 2005 again, the day which I really felt the presence of God telling me how I am a special child, and always special from the day I was born onto this world. It's really sweet.

"O heavenly Father, I am sorry for all the times which I have done something with my own strength. Father, I am weak, but you are strong. Be with me always, and let me never forget that we can always rely on you and that you are our source of strength for all the work that we do. Amen"